Last year was a rollercoaster for most of us and pretty much everyone was unhinged from their normal schedule, job or environment. If nothing changed in your life, consider yourself rather very fortune.
Professionally I am a teach of English/literature so before Covid, my job was to read books and passages and have them interpreted to my students. 9-5 , 6 days a week. That was the norm.
Teachers aren’t the most apreciated civil servants. Therefore, other than the affection you might develop for your students, there is nothing much to celebrate about the job it’s self. In fact, it is more draining for private school teachers than public school teachers. The latter’s assurance of their salaries makes them get away with pretty much anything, but for a private school teacher, you reap what you sow. So just like any exploited private teacher, I hoped this would change. And then Corona Happened.
I was still in Kampala when corona first hit Uganda. Schools closed, and then transportation was shutdown which meant from there on, i had to fend for myself on my little savings. By the end of the three or so months of lockdown, I only had transport to take me back to my village..so I did.
It’s not always the most pleasant thing to be in the village when you are at the age where everyone thinks you should be married. The questions come by in the most uncomfortable ways and you just want to vanish. In this case, there was no where to run to. It was either here or my work place which I had left as a result of the virus and bankruptcy. So again, I prayed it could all go away and it didn’t take long before my time came.
I received a phone call to help create an original TV series for DStv. You can imagine my excitement. As the caller went a head to reveal the details, I was already in my head packing the items I required for my journey back to Kampala for the writing workshop. This was my first paid writing gig so the anxiety and fear was at bay. In the taxi, I remember rereading the emails over and over again. I needed notes on the storyline. I was incredulously nervousness but I knew I wanted this, no, needed it. At the workshop, i did more of the listening than talking. Little did I know that in months to come, I would be assistant directing on this same project. Another BIG challenge, probably worse than the previous. I had never been on a set before.
In the history of this my life, I have never been on so much pressure and anxiety that i literally felt physical pain. If you have never been on set before, the assistant director (A.D) is the boss. You have to make the most difficult choices and decisions on set. Your duties include:
#1: Drafting shooting schedules, callsheets, and drawing storyboards.
#2: Ensuring required crew and cast are on set and have the right, scripts, schedule, location etc.
#3: calling the roll
#4: Liaising with the crew.
#5: Ensuring safety of the entire team
Find the job description here: https://www.masterclass.com/articles/what-is-a-first-assistant-director-job-description-and-responsibilities-of-the-1st-ad-on-a-film-set#:~:text=The%201st%20AD%20clears%20the,props%2C%20and%20cast%20are%20available.
There I was, fresh in the industry with no clue of how things are done but after what i had been through, I can assure you I was up for the challenge. My producer was kind enough to go through the basics of the job with me, but producers don’t have a lot of time so like any techy millennial, I googled my job responsibilities, some of which were had to comprehend so i kept inquiring from mr google. I believe once you self educate yourself, that knowledge sticks with you for a lifetime therefore, more than often I educated myself. It took me weeks to familiarise with the role. What made this job a nightmare was I was dealing with adults who like me, never had much set experience and yet kept consulting me on pretty much everything. I was drained and dehyderated. Hell broke loose when my cast and crew started falling sick day in, day out. The pressure was infinite and the production had to keep running, I had to make compromises on a daily. I felt my nerves, my voice,my tongue and my skin dessert me. Eventually, we all got used and things eased up a bit. I say a bit because filmmakers are soldiers in the real sense of the word. Morning to evening, they shoot.π
Jobs that give us houses, transport allowance, food, medical allowance get us thinking we have arrived in life. But the truth is, this is an exploitative quality used to pay you pennies as they will remind you of these privileges to silence you each time you ask for more. In fact, they will go ahead to tell you you’re indebted to them and will threaten to take these so called privileges away In case you don’t comply. As you start to question yourself on how you will start a new life: paying rent, electricity, water bills and other utilities, you start to conform and settle for what they have to offer because you don’t even have enough savings to start with.
So on that cold evening when I called my parents to tell them I was going to write and direct films there on, I knew I was taking a big turn in my life. Yes I was afraid. Yes I was scared. Yes I was uncertain. And truthfully, Career change is one of the most scary things in the world. You can’t see the other side so you can’t measure the green of the grass. if you do, then you don’t have the certainty of how long the grass will remain green. Self doubt sinks in, fear of the unknown, anxiety, loss of friends, paranoia, change of schedule, environment, etc. You feel alone and these insecurities become your companion but, don’t let them win. It is okay to be afraid but unless you go a head and do it, you will never know. And the least you want to do is spend the rest of your life lamenting on how things could have been had you been bold enough to take that step.
I’ll say if things become uncomfortable, seize that moment and use it to make those difficult decisions you have meditated on for weeks, months, or years. Discomfort comes with a shift, swing it the right way and you might catch the biggest fish.
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